Talk:Auslly/@comment-4306196-20130208231435

Sorry if this isnt Auslly related but I really need some advice please this is the situation... My dad is an alcoholic and I just can't deal with it anymore sometimes I just want to die I've never thought about suicide though but i feel it is too much for me every single weekend my dad gets drunk until he can barely speak and starts to say things like "I am gonna die" or "I just want to die" and my whole life has been like that I hate to see my dad like that, he always promises he wont drink again and he tries but he can't stay one week away from alcohol, he has had "situations" due to drikr and he doenst understand. I've to get good grades or at least try to, And the other big problem is that I feel so uncomfortable with my body!! I just hate myself and it is not only about the typical "I feel fat", I feel ugly, I get sooo anxous eating that I can't stop doing it but then one day I felt sick and I decided to throw up until i feel ok. The problem is that after that day I started to throw up every day after eating because I eat A LOT but now it is running out of my control... Both eating because I cant stop it and throwing up problems I dont wanna do it anymore but I cant control myself I feel so angry and upset and sick if I dont throw up people tells me I'm not fat but I see muself ugly and My self steen doesnt exist anymore... I dont want to tell mu mom she is too busy taking care of my dad and his problem. What can I do please I'm desperated!!! :'(  :'(