Board Thread:Help desk/@comment-5569148-20131015214330/@comment-5384369-20131015230733

Macy. There's a time in everyone's life when they have to put themselves first. In my opinion, that time is now.

I mean, I'm really trying not to tell you what to do, but your response is making it really hard to do so.

Macy, quit worrying about how your parents react. I think they'll care more about how you're feeling than anything else. Besides, it's kinda their job to worry. So, let's look at this from a logical point of view than the overly stereotypical and may I add cliche how-will-someone-think-of-me point of view:

Do you really think that when your parents do find out (they willl because they're your parents and they pretty much have a right to know) what you've been going though, I think they'll feel a whole lot worse, not just about you, but about themselves. The fact that they didn't notice their own daughter has been having these thoughts and feeling and they didn't know/didn't do anything is really something that can rip a person apart from the inside out.

It's just the natural feeling someone experiences when they couldn't do something for a loved one. Never forget that your parents will go to the edge of the earth (assuming the world is now flat) just to make you happy.

So ya know what? I think you need to quit worrying about how other people will look at you. Whether they are feeling guilty, regretting not knowing, pitying you, or thinking you're some kind of basket case, whatever it is, this is really about you and you only. I'm not saying you need to shout it to the world (even though you kinda did by posting it online...) but at least tell your parents because they probably have gone through the same thing, or know someone who can at least help.