Thread:Auslly4life24/@comment-6318594-20140426230812/@comment-6318594-20140428001651

So, I've been thinking about what you've said - how everything gets better. And, well, today, it didn't start out as well as I thought it would. I was literally pacing and trying to prevent myself from bursting into tears again. But at the same time, I was telling myself that everything will get better, over and over. Yet, I feel like I wasn't believing what I was saying to myself. I still had bags under my eyes from yesterday, I was extremely stressed from all this pressure for school because so much is coming up, and I could feel the immense tension building up inside of me. And I almost stopped believing in the advice that you gave me yesterday too. I know I said yesterday that I was starting to feel better already, and I was, really; what you said yesterday gave me hope for the future. I mean, at the moment, I still feel...kinda depressed, I guess you could say (I'm not even watching the RDMAs tonight...). Like I just still feel so hurt and alone on the inside and that no matter how long I wait, things won't get better. I really want to believe you that things do get better, and I really am trying to keep that positive mindset, but, Idk. I know that you never said that things would get better right away. I'm sure that this is probably going to take some time, that I will need to...adjust (I think that's the word) and know that with time that I will get out of this hole I happen to be in.

Man, Idek what the point of that huge paragraph was. Idk... I guess I need someone to vent out to.

And, finally. While I don't completely feel cheery at the moment, I seriously do want to thank you for how you're always here to talk. Really. I've talked to you about so many deeper things ever since we first started to get to know each other last year, and each time you've really helped me out. You pretty much play the role of the older sister that I never had - the one I can always look up to in times of need. So, yeah. Thanks again, Mary. :) ^-^

Wow, long message I typed there... :P