Thread:MacyZC55/@comment-11571704-20151122044621/@comment-5569148-20160108043833

And we're back with the excuses. I knew it.

By saying you can't do anything for your life because "you think you've gone through every possible definition", you're just proving my point all over again: you're not willing to do anything for your life. Go read about people who have failed countless of times, yet they were determined enough to succeed, even if all the odds were against them. (And don't come here and tell me "oh, that's stupid because it has nothing to do with depression, because I'll, once again, let you know how you're just making a new excuse.)

Good to know you've done things for other people. I have no complains about that. You should keep up with that, because that way, you help people who are in worse conditions than yours.

"Depression causes people to view everything negatively without their control" nah, that's bull****. If you don't think you can't control your mind, you're lost. If this has to do somehow with medication that you can't afford, (thing I find kinda hard to believe) then get out of the wiki, and start researching. If you really wanted to get your medication (a proper one or whatever) you'd have it by now. Opportunities. Are. ENDLESS. If you think otherwise, then I'm sorry you keep wasting your time dude.

And you just pointed out an amazing thing, which I believe is part if your main problem: your parents. It's completely normal to be scared to death of them, I can totally relate to that. But you know what? Putting aside the fact that they're your parents, you should find a way to transform their negativity into something positive. if you live to please them, you're lost, kid. Yes, it sucks a lot not being supported by them; because you even start wishing you weren't born and crab like that, but every single human being is independent. You either start looking for ways to stop their dumb arguments get into your head, or you prepare yourself to failure for the rest of your life. In my case, I turned their negative comments in motivation. I can't wait to show them I'm capable of doing what they thought I'd never do. I'm so excited to prove them how wrong they were. >:) Anyway, I think I should wait for a new excuse by now lol.

I get dizzy when I see blood. Even if I can't see my face when I look at it (duh), I know for sure I get pale whenever I stare at it. I hate that haha.

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Just FYI, I'm not trying to encourage you to do anything stupid with the following question, but at this point, why haven't you killed yourself yet? I'm really wondering about that.