User blog:Red Compassion, Red Love, Red Hate/Sorry



Hey guys, Red here. I know I haven’t been on the wiki that much and have only gone to edit about once/twice a day, and I have to kinda apologize.

After some stuff went down on this wiki about a month ago, I’ve been detached, stressed out I’ve had a little bit of anxiety, it’s easier to feel depressed, an I’ve had some trouble sleeping which results in a lack of adequate amount of sleep (I mean, before I already didn’t get the suggested 8 hours, but now it’s been affecting me later on through the day). I was spending the last few weeks teary eyed by the end of the day, physical pains in my chest and stomach, increased sense of paranoia, and a lot of the time, I wasn’t having that same motivation to come on the wiki as I did before. The situation really made me look over my role on the wiki and whether I should continue to be part of the Austin & Ally Wiki community or not.

I know I’ve been detached, and some people may or may not have noticed a difference. But I decided although I had a situation on the wiki, it’s really not fair to you guys, and I guess a bit to myself, to just give up and let what happened depress me further than it already has and affect my work ethics. I was taking some medications, subsequent to the “incident” (I guess you could call it) to help regulate (I guess) my body, mind and soul, so hopefully that can do its job and I can go back to leading a slightly more upbeat and normal life.

So really, I just wanted to say sorry if you guys needed me but felt I was sort of unapproachable or whatever, but I’ll try to get my life back together in order to be a better admin.