Thread:MacyZC55/@comment-11571704-20151122044621/@comment-11571704-20151204041414

Back in elementary school, I was very outgoing. From kindergarten to third grade, I was popular. After I'd finished third grade, my parents switched my brothers and I to another school. Being the new kid made me an easy target. I tried really hard to make friends, but everyone hated me for no reason. By sixth grade, I was the shy, loner girl. I thought middle school would be better, but it wasn't. There was so much pressure on dressing like everyone else, liking what everyone else liked, and, of course, dating. Just for the sake of dating. I wasn't into that stuff, so I was even more of a target. I found myself going further into my shell. When A&A aired, you'd think I'd have clicked with Ally's character, (Ok, I sort of did relate to her style of clothing in Season one) but I mostly clicked with Austin because he reminded me of the girl I used to be, right down to his singing dream. As I watched him strive for it, I became more confident. The lack of romance on the show also helped out. My parents worked a lot and my brothers and I didn't get along, so my house didn't really feel like a home. As my connection with A&A (The old one) deepened, Sonic Boom felt like a home to me. The episodes always had something I'd want to see, which is good because I don't watch new episodes of tv shows unless I've seen all the previous ones. I started writing songs and singing in front of people. I haven't sung in front of people since Austin gave up his career and I haven't written a note since they took Sonic Boom away. I tried to watch the newer episodes and I ended turning off the TV, locking myself in my bedroom, and crying. I tried to watch the older episodes and got the same results. I tried other shows, but I didn't feel the connection. I've tried literally everything, but it's just not working. I feel like a big part of me is completely gone and everything I do just reminds me of it. I'm not making any of this up.