User blog:DisneyLover16/Departure

*sigh* Okay. Yeah. This is so hard to type out. .___. But... The title. If you assume the worst (maybe not the worst, but maybe something kinda sad...) based on the title of this blog, I think you've assumed correctly.

I've thought about this for a really long time, and I finally came to a decision. Simply put, I'm leaving.

Let me explain my reasoning for this. Excuse my rambling though, this is gonna be really long...

First off, my schedule has been packed more than ever, especially this month. I have never been more stressed than ever. Asides from wikia, I have school, clubs, fanfiction, music (eventually), and my youth group. I know this might not seem much to what you guys have, possibly because some of you might have the same kind of things to deal with it like me, and still come on here. But, the thing is school has been extremely tough lately. I have a C and a couple B's in my classes, which I realize may not be too bad, but it is for an Asian... .__. In addition, I'm a part of 3 different clubs, all of which I'm an active member of - that meaning I go to each meeting, and eventually become an officer of them (hopefully) sometime in the future. Then, there's music (I shall be learning guitar sometime soon), which I know I'll take seriously. It probably won't take up too much time, but it'll still take up time. Fanfiction you may or may not know I write, though I have to put in a lot of time and effort into it. And, this youth group I'm a part of which I do work for outside of its own time.

My cramped schedule is the main reason I'm leaving. Though, there's a little bit more to it. I remember what my life was usually like before the wiki. For one, I had more free time of doing nothing on my hands. xD But, I remember being able to do whatever it was I wanted. Like, I could change up different things each day. When I was younger, I'd spend nearly all my time outside, or taking naps, or reading for countless hours. I gave up all that though; for the most part at least. Because, the one thing I now do in my free time is come to the wiki. And, as much as I love coming on, I want a lot of my time back for all those things, along with a few other activites too.

The last reason I was going to avoid saying, because I feel like it might hurt you guys in some way. But, I figured that I be honest anyways. It's just... I've lost interest. I've lost interest, or the "will" to come on. Like, sometimes I'll come on to heal my boredom, but instead, it'll worsen the boredom and I feel as if it was a waste of time.

...

Okay, that sounded bad. x_x But, I guess I could I say that I've lost interest in how we "do things". You know, when there's no news of anything, it's the same old, same old - usually when it comes to Chatzy. I know each convo is different each time, but I feel like eventually it'll circle back to the same thing. You may not think so though...

That's basically my reasoning for leaving. But, wait. I'm not going to be gone yet. Not just yet.

<p style="margin:12pt0in;line-height:15.75pt;"><span style="font-size:10pt;font-family:Helvetica,sans-serif;">So, as you know, I have my comment bubble for a week, and I like putting it to good use. What I'm saying is, I'm staying one last week on the wiki. Not only that, but I kinda don't want to leave today... I mean, like, if I were to leave today, then it would be on random short notice, right? So, I'll officially leave this Saturday. I have a lock-in that day anyways, so it'll fit into my schedule, I guess. :P

<p style="margin:12pt0in;line-height:15.75pt;"><span style="font-size:10pt;font-family:Helvetica,sans-serif;">That also reminds me. This isn't going to be goodbye forever. On occasion, I'll visit the wiki, and most likely go on a mass commenting spree or something. x) :P And besides, you can still contact me by leaving a message on my wall, or PMing me on Fanfiction or Twitter. The only thing is Idk how long it'll take for me to answer back. :/ So in a way, I'll still be around. :)

<p style="margin:12pt0in;line-height:15.75pt;"><span style="font-size:10pt;font-family:Helvetica,sans-serif;">This felt hard to get out of my system. ;__; I am really going to miss coming on, and I am really, really, really going to miss talking to everyone on a daily basis. :(  See, I may or may not be reminiscing about a bunch of memories from this place at the moment... Really, though. Being a part of the wiki, and this crazy, yet lovable family has been truly awesome. You guys make me smile and laugh even when you didn't know it. Not to mention making me die of feels whenever one of you posts an edit, or a link to something to fangirl about. :] :P You're all Rainitastically,  Calumazingly, Lauraficially, Rossome, Rikerific (lol, sorry Hugs :P I had to...), Rydellicious, Ellingtontastic, Rocky-mazing, Ryland-abulous. :D (Haha, Mary, you know where I got this from. x)) And, I really mean it too. You guys made me realize it was awesomely okay to be weird and crazy, because when I first came here, I was still somewhat in my "trying to fit in at school" and "trying to be normal like everyone else" phases. Basically, I learned to just... Be myself, I guess. :) So, thank you. :D

<p style="margin:12pt0in;line-height:15.75pt;">It has been just over 9 months since I joined the wiki, and I've loved each and every day of being on it. I may be one of the older users, but thanks for helping me see the light. More so, the show itself was what actually made me step out of my shell to overome stage fright, and get me interested in music again. :D (Idk how that sentence related to this, but oh well.)

<p style="margin:12pt0in;line-height:15.75pt;">If you skipped through this entire message I typed out, or maybe skimmed through it, just remember this one thing from me...

' Even if I'm no longer here, I'm only a message wall away. Always know that you can come to me. :) '

I love you guys. The wiki became my second home, and you guys are the family that welcomed me into it. :)

~DisneyLover16

'P.S. I know that this was really cheesy. Don't judge me. x)'

'P.P.S. Guess who's ready for an epic week of commenting for one last time? :] :D'