Talk:Auslly/@comment-4306196-20130208233429

Sorry if this isn't Auslly related but I really need some advice please. This is the situation...

My dad is an alcoholic and I just can't deal with it anymore, sometimes I just want to die BUT I've never thought about sucicide. I feel it is too much for me, every single weekend (and sometimes even since Thursday) My dad gets drunk and I just hate to see him like that, he always promises that he´ll never do it again but he always does it again. He has had "situations" due to his problem. The other BIG BIG problem I've got is that I feel so uncomfortable with my body... And I'm not only talking about the typical "I feel fat" People tells me I am not fat But I feel like that plus I feel ugly.. simply... my self steem doesn't excist anymore I get so anxous eating that I can't stop doing it, one day I ate until I felt sick and I had to throw up, the problem is that after that day I got the awful idea to throw up after eating.. BUT only the days I eat without control, but those problems (eating and throwing up after it) are getting out of my control. I can't control myself and now I thrw up everyday after eating anything (not breakfast) I feel angry, sad, upset and sick if I don't throw up. I don't wan to do it anymore, it has been a month and now I feel I can't control it. Telling my mom? forget it she is too busy taking care of my dad (all my family is) What can I do??? Please? :´( I feel so sad and upset :'( Please help mee :(