Thread:Red Compassion, Red Love, Red Hate/@comment-5679384-20140425180842/@comment-5679384-20140501001509

Well, I agree; but even if he does claim to stop, he will still do it behind my back, and that will hurt me even more...

A while ago, when my oldest brother was very young (6 or 7), he asked my parents if they smoke. My mom answered truthfully and said, "I used to, but I quit." My dad, however, wasn't man enough to admit to his child and thus, he told him "No." Four years later of him hiding it from me and my siblings, we finally started noticing the smokes in the grass. We found out about it and my dad apologized to us, yet, for seven years more, he still goes at it. Again and again every night. He still hides it from us even though he understands that we are aware. It kills me every time that he comes home and smells like smokes and beer, and then drinks more beer, about six to seven bottles, every night.

One night he didn't drink anything at all. I mean, he still smoked, but he didn't drink beer. I tricked myself into thinking that he was going to stop, but the next night he did it again. And again the next night. And once again the next night. His parents visited once for about a week this year's January, and he wasn't drinking anything (of course), so I thought that maybe this would help him. Nope. Not in the slightest.

He claims it's because of stress from his job, but now it's just become an addiction, stress or no stress. Although, he doesn't drink on his days off... his smoking doesn't bother me as much as his drinking, because I don't see him when he smokes. I do, however, see him with the bottle in his hand acting drunk in front of my nine year old sister... what a nice childhood, huh?